my little-big-boss

When I knew that I was pregnant, needless to say, I was super excited   

How I wished to tell everyone the good news, just like anyone would do.

Even after I’ve got through my first trimester, a stable stage during pregnancy, I was still reluctant to get this news to public.., even to my friends..

Unlike my first pregnancy, which went all public with overly excitement us, who did not think much of any circumstances that might occurred..

What I wanted to reveal is, exactly one year before I knew I was pregnant with my new Little-big-boss, I was pregnant

A pic from year 2014 September

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But a miscarriage..
I felt like I was brought up high to the sky when I got a “line” on the pregnancy test, and being slammed back down to the bottom of the earth  when the doc told me that this baby is not likely to be growing inside my tummy..

There was no heartbeat detected on my 7 weeks checkup..

This miscarriage was really an experience for me. A valued one.

I was shocked and sad, but not extremely.

I did my research and knew that, especially for an early miscarriage, it was not an accident, nor a fault from the outside or inside. It was a coincidence.

It was due to chromosomal abnormality. A cause that is biologically natural that would occurred to anyone, even if you are a completely healthy person.

It was said that in 10 pregnancies, there is a very high percentage that one pregnancy will end up on a miscarriage of chromosomal abnormality..
Just that I got it on my second pregnancy.. (kinda? )

It is not a rare case.

To think of me myself is a living being, this miscarriage is just a natural occurrence. Not a thing that can be prevented.
In fact, I considered this as lucky, where I didn’t carry this  abnormality to a further stage..
Most of the time, the nature is all made up very fine itself. The body knows something is wrong and tried to terminate it.

This fact balanced up my shattered feeling a lot.

Though sad and confused, I was kinda ok with my feeling.

Just that, I was afraid to face the upcoming pain.

I chose not to have a D & C surgery (Dilation and Curettage). I chose to wait for the fetus to come out by itself.

I was told that I shouldn’t wait for too long for it might cause an infection.

Yeah, I can’t deny that I was still carrying a slight hope that this baby is growing inside.. maybe the doc missed out something, or maybe the heart hasn’t start beating yet only?, lost counting cz of my irregular menstruation? 

I had a time limit of 4 weeks, if nothing miracle or the not-growing fetus is not coming out naturally, I will have to undergo the D & C procedure..

Obviously, there was no miracle.

I waited without any signs but knowing that my baby is not growing inside me..for like more than 3 weeks.
-It was dreadful..

A few days before my D & C appointment, I started bleeding.

At last some sign!

Bleeding from really light to heavy with lots of clots. One of this clots is supposedly the fetus..

I was still bleeding until the day of my appointment..

I was hoping that my tummy is cleared but no.. fetus still there..
But doc said it will come out soon, so we decided not to perform the surgery yet.

True enough, at night on the same day, I felt like my womb was going to tear off! Felt so heavy and pain. Much bleeding and with more clots! Big one!

Some people said this felt like a mini labor, and I couldn’t agree more.

The pain came very gradually.

Felt so much pain at one point and so much was coming out that I need to get rid of them in the toilet..

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The great pain subsided on the same night..

Went to the doc the next day, and as expected, all is gone.

I was relieved.
Studies and researchers revealed that early miscarriage (due to chromosomal abnormality) is not all a bad news. It also proved that we can conceive normally, and most likely the next pregnancies are going to be good one with a healthy baby  Most of the time, miscarriage is a one-time occurrence.

So if anyone is experiencing the same case, don’t worry too much!
This is also an episode of life  which still not a bad one, just a coincidence.
(If this is hard for you to accept, maybe try to think that your baby forgot something and he just went back to God to get it )

My only concern after that was, I couldn’t made it to give a look on my not-growing fetus..

2-3 months of rest, we tried to conceive again. I wish that my baby comes back to me as soon as possible to fill my lost.

And he did! -exactly 1 year after that
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Once again, meet Kta, my new Little-big-boss! Freshly out from the oven

Time flies~

Little-big-boss is getting into kindergarten, his first step to the social world,
a new everyday without mommy and daddy~

I’ve been telling him things about Kindergarten,
bringing him to events organised by different kindergartens nearby,
getting him well prepared mentally sort of .
So, he was actually quite looking forward to join in since months ago 
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He has little friends in the same kindergarten 

Friends he knows from swimming school 

Yeah, he looked pretty confident during the ceremony day~
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On the first day,
I thought he would at least nag a bit..

But, he just hold the teacher hand and went in together nervously that he forgot to say bye-bye to mommy 

During pick-up time, the class teacher said Little-big-boss was a little bit nervous but was having fun doing all the activities in the class 
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Nothing is more relieving seeing your precious is happy joining in the group without the tearing sniffing part 

 Happy Kindergarten Life my Little-big-boss  

 20160409
 3years 7months 22days
 3歳 7か月 22日

Wanna have a piece of pizza specially made by a 3 years old boy  

Totally supervised and hygienic
Apron on
Cap on
Hand washed before touching any food

What do you say   
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Let’s see how Little-big-boss did it to gain your trust on a 3 years old kid 

Start with a pizza dough which was already made before hand.

Put the dough on the counter and knead.

Try to make it flat and round to it’s size!

Next, spread pizza sauce on top thoroughly.

Now this is the most important part for me 
No cheese no pizza.
So more CHEESE

Different ingredients make all types of pizza
What do you prefer? 

Looks yummy already~

Almost there,
raw pizza is ready to go through the stove~
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In just a few minutes,
Here it is A well cooked yummy pizza 
Final step, roll-cut the pizza into pieces 

All DONE 

How was it? 
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Just to gain your trust more,

He is a fully-trained staff by the manager 

He even got his certificate from Kids Pizza Academy certifying his ability as a pizza maker at Domino’s Pizza 

So, so, so what d’ya say  

Haha~
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After work,

Little-big-boss and his little-colleagues went to the park to have their lunch 

Yes, a picnic pizza lunch! 

To master in pizza-making, they make their own pizza pretty often – for test tasting! 
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Pizza is high in calories 

So they usually go on to a few runs on their respective bikes after meal 

Enjoying the nature of the park, freeing all the stress from work, or maybe life itself  

Little-big-boss talks a lot, but sometimes his friends were just not listening..
so he gets a bit emotional at times 
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Anyways,

Pizza by the next generation 






     
*This was just a program for kids to experience pizza-making by Domino’s Pizza*
     






 20160120
 3years 4months 18days
 3歳 4か月 18日

My Little-big-boss is THREE  (this year  yeah, it was from last September )
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Been very busy with moving the house, cleaning the new house and some sicknesses..
Found no time and the mood to blog until lately 

I guess I need to get this up before the year end..
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Like the previous years, we celebrated Little-big-boss 3rd birthday with some DIY decoration with a little help from Little-big-boss , some party-like food , and mommy handmade birthday cake  

Yes, a family birthday party, only the three of us

Simple birthday meal for the night 

Sharing with daddy~
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Next, the birthday cake 
I’m not so good with cakes making yet..
This may consider not too bad I guess  I mean the taste 
A banana sponge cake with choco flakes

After the birthday song, the candle blowing,
the cake monster is getting ready to munch the CAKE

Munch, munch, munch..
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Next, pressie time~
Instead of toys, he got a Ripstik braveboard 
It’s a rolling board with 2 wheels instead 4 wheels 
(Might be still too early for a 3 year old..)
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Lastly, family picture time  
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On a different day,

Little-big-boss celebrated birthday with his little friends 

Every friend bring some food and we shared 

Birthday lunch with friends 
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Some play-time with the girl friends

And of course, the boy friends too
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Birthday donuts time 
Yes! Instead of a birthday cake, we had birthday animal donuts to celebrate

Everyone was going to decide which one they want to munch 

All 3 years old blowing the candles together 
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Little-big-boss happy getting pressie from his little friends 

Obviously more happy after opening all the pressie 

He was very excited with the balloon pressie too 

Kept playing non-stop for quite long
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Happy 3rd birthday~!






In fact,

I think it’s time to wish everyone a HAPPY NEW YEAR haha

Have a GREAT YEAR ahead 

On hot hot weather in Malaysia,

Yes, water playing days non-stop

At PJ Palms Sports Centre in Petaling Jaya

The water slide

SPLASSSSSSH

He was having so much fun and like so familiar on the slide with lots of stances sliding down until he got to an accident bumping on to a kid who kept blocking the way down at the exit of the slide..

His parents were no where to be seen! He was a foreigner who doesn’t speak English, which he didn’t seem to care for my warning till the unfortunate accident resulting Little-big-boss got hurt and bleed on the his lips..

I was trying to avoid this and been very careful guarding Little-big-boss and my nephew, making sure nobody was down at the exit again trying to climb up from the slide..

The slide was a curved slide where you can’t see actually if anybody was blocking when you are up the slide.
I warned and made sure the kid was not near there.
I can’t watch 2 ways up and down at the same time.

And there when the accident happened The kid was back at the exit!

I know it was also my responsibility to let this happened!

But I still need to make this statement!

Parents out there, please do look after your children, especially when they are in the pool and watch over them not only for their own safety but also others. And plus, so that they don’t break the rules and disturb other children playing at the same place

My case here,
he is your child, he doesn’t understand English, Malay and Chinese in Malaysia and doesn’t seem to listen to me. Do all these make enough reasons for you to even have to guard and guide them

Other than that, we had fun
This place was quite nice with restaurants surrounding the pool.

Website: http://www.pjpalms.com/
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Next,
At LOST WORLD of TAMBUN in Ipoh

I went back to my hometown, Ipoh!
The town, a valley that surrounded by mountains!

We went to the LOST WORLD,
a theme park with water
which located just under the mountains

Yay! Under the big raining mushroom

With his big cousin brother, Yang gorgor

On a big float

The warm water pool

My sexy little man






This was actually quite a fun place especially with small kids

They have a big water park area
They have a big dry theme park
They have a petting zoo park
They have a tiger valley
They have a hot spring spa 
etc, etc, etc~

Though we ended up the whole day just in the water park.. (a few rides in the dry park..)

Would love to explore more the next round

Website: http://sunwaylostworldoftambun.com/

 20150720
 1051 days old
 2歳10か月18日 / 2 yrs-10 mths-18 days

Throughout the week, as mentioned on my last post, everyday was a pool day for us.. 

We are lucky enough that on one of our pool day, we were invited to a very very nice pool
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The rooftop INFINITY POOL

Isn’t this epic 
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What a day to be relaxed on a pool like this 

..as if a mother can relax that easily where she was responsible for the children safety! 
Little-big-boss and his cousin brother, Yang.
Especially in a pool!  haha

My kakkoii baby  haha
The view of the city from the pool was marvelous.
City but not in the middle of the busy surroundings or tall sky scraper buildings 

I am very glad that Little-big-boss is getting comfortable in the water, in deep water 
It’s cool looking at him swimming so freely and cute to see him poking out his head from the water very frequently to get air
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He jumps very confidently..

Though not penetrating into the pool smoothly, but splash flatly onto it  Ouch!
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Little-big-boss’ pool friends of the day 
Cousin sister, Little Clara  (together with mommy)

And cousin brother, Yang gorgor (bro) (together with my cousin, the host lady )

And with little baby Carlson too  (Little Clara’s brother)
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Thank you for inviting us, couz! 

To this amazing pool of your hubby’s condo! 
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While we were chilling down in the pool on this hot hot weather in Malaysia..
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Yasupi papa is chilling down on hot summer in Japan with his new machine!!
The ice scraper machine 

Yasupi papa had been envying us having fun in the pool without him..
so he sent me these pics to make me feel the same..

 20150718
 1049 days old
 2歳10か月16日 / 2 yrs-10 mths-16 days

This year trip to Malaysia, as usual we one family came to Malaysia but the daddy was just here for 5 days.
Me and Little-big-boss is staying for a whole long month 

Well, we haven’t been to anywhere particularly..

EXCEPT the pool! 
Almost everyday! after daddy has gone back to Japan, we were in the pool 

Yes, he jumps to the pool like a swimmer 

He was in a baby swimming course since 1 year old 

He can stay in deep water without support, without struggling now 

He has grew to be quite comfortable in the water..
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That he likes to be tossed up high 

Higher..

Again and again..

And never gets tired of it..

Tossing photos credited to my friend, June! who took these perfectly

With the company by little baby June
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He goes on to a baby surfing board too 

He kinda gets excited on the unbalance board 

Surfing photos credited to my friend AnnEe with her two little twins as our pool friends too on that day!
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My little surfer 
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Thank you June for the invitation to your pool!

 20150712
 1043 days old
 2歳10か月10日

This is how the story goes..

As usual, when we were having a little walk, we have been going to our nearby favorite spot still.

One fine day, a big fish tank was out in the display! (around end of March)

Inside the tank, there were loads of tadpoles!! 

The uncle said we can have some home, so Little-big-boss did take some home..

Twice in two different days

I think there were 26~28? of them all together..

And so, Little-big-boss got his first pet home 

I never knew that the tadpoles eat variety food!  bread, meat, fish flakes, veges, etc!
We fed them bread mostly 

It was good that he was interested in observing the tadpoles 

About a month later..
The hind legs are out

They were still tadpoles with 2 legs then..
Still eating bread for their meals 

Since then, the progress in turning to a frog was fast!

Within a week,

Forelegs are out too

Tails are still long, I don’t know whether to categorize this as a tadpole or a frog..

It was time to make some land for them to come out from the water..

Within another 2, 3 days..

FROGS

A very little frog I have ever seen!
They were like smaller than my pinky finger nail!

They were fast turning into a frog since the hind legs were out

Frogs eats insects..

It was hard to give them food at this stage..

Yes, it was time to return them back to where they belonged to.. the riverside.

Time to say bye-bye, froggie~
Little-big-boss was ok and copping very good the whole process 
He told the froggie, “Time to go home frog~“, when freeing them to the muddy land

This area was just nice for the little frogs! 
Damped and loads of potential prey for them

Of course not all grown up the same speed.
Some fully grown up, some still with tails and some still a tadpole!

We’d been coming to this spot for 4 times to free all of the frogs 
Some were dead though..

On the last trip freeing the frogs, Little-big-boss found a treasure 

And a new PET

A shrimp! A rather cool shrimp! 
Given by a man who was fishing at the riverside 

Setting up a new home for the new pet..

A rather big and cool shrimp

The is our first time owning a shrimp as well..

Isn’t it cute? 

Unfortunately, it didn’t survive long..

To fill up the aquarium again, we are now having some Japanese rice fish and Yamato shrimp accompanied by a snail who just popped out of nowhere






The first day owning the tadpoles
 20150325
 934 days old
 2歳6か月23日






By the way, we are back in Malaysia now~
Gonna blog about playtime in Malaysia next

The koi pond covered with fallen Sakura
(Click image to enlarge)






 20150403
 943 days old
 2歳7か月1日

 Sakura, the early blooming.
 Sakura, the full blossom!
Sakura, the full blossom still!






About a week after the peak blossom, it was time to bid goodbye to the Sakura 

Though the Sakura was starting to fall, they still make a beautiful view ever

If some breezy wind comes by, it makes it all amazingly pretty for a O-hanami day
with the Sakura falling gracefully down to the ground assembling the falling snow

We called it “Sakura Fubuki 桜吹雪”

Too bad I didn’t get to capture the moment of the falling Sakura with the breeze

But I guess it worth more to feel this amazing moment before anything else 

I have this Little-big-boss, who starts to recognize Sakura more than he did last year

Had fun just as much with the Sakura

Looking like a Ancient Chinese poet..

Observing the Sakura tree

As if, he was getting so comfortable with the Sakura tree 

As if, he had befriended the Sakura tree

Yeah, as if..
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For the Sakura or not, I like this place even for a walk quite much

It is along the river, and we were on the higher ground

With the view of the metropolitan city of Tokyo

Some playgrounds just on the lower ground

It’s great to have this kind of place just nearby

Despite that we’re now living in a concrete city 
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Some snapshots with the Sakura before farewell

The happy shot – holding hand pose

The loving shot – carry up and hug pose

The weird shot – ..Spiderman pose?

 20150406
 946 days old
 2歳7か月4日